Today is Friday, June 26th. The little guy in this photo will walk across the stage today, so thought it only appropriate to re-post “Kindergarten Moment.”
This week I mailed a check to Manhattanville College; it was a deposit towards my son’s freshmen year. As I put it in the mail, I realized that over the next few months I’m going to have a handful of “Kindergarten Moments” …his senior ball, his high school graduation and the day he leaves home for college.
Why do I call it a Kindergarten Moment? Well, that’s just a term I coined a while back when I tried to make sense of why we can’t hold back the tears when we put our child on the school bus for the very first day of Kindergarten… but the next day we’re fine. What’s so different about the second day that makes it ok?
Then it dawned on me. Every moment in our child’s life, that we consider a milestone, we force ourselves to really think about what it means. We embrace it, even though it makes us an emotional wreck. Because if we didn’t, we’d miss it altogether and we’d never get that moment back. So, on the first day of kindergarten we realize that our child is no longer a baby. And we realize he or she is growing up. And we cry. We had a Kindergarten Moment. Then, on the next day, we allow ourselves to feel normal again. We go through our daily routine. We try not to think about it. Because if we did, we’d go through life as blubbering idiots.
I’m trying to convince myself that this time it’ll be easier to let go. After all, he’s my third child and it’s not like I haven’t done this before. But I know deep down…it won’t be any different.
There is one promise I made to my son. As he packs his belongings for college, I will not give him any box with the STAYFREE maxi pad logo stamped on the side… like I used when moving into my dorm. I didn’t think much of it at the time, but in retrospect not a good decision. I want him to have a fighting chance. 🙂
This photo was taken by my friend, Sara, who I’m sure is looking down from heaven and laughing. She was the one that always had her camera on hand to capture OUR Kindergarten Moments.